Monday, January 28, 2008
has anyone not know yet that my favorite movie now is Cashback? i am deeply in love with all the songs from the soundtrack. well, listening to them will always get me thinking about that certain somebody. i'm supposed to be going out with that certain somebody today for lunch because i have something utterly important to tell him. that something important is bad news for that certain somebody, i'm starting to feel that it is for me too. i hope that the certain somebody will take it the good way and if it's not too much to ask, reassure me that i'm making the right decision. the only reassurance i really want is from that certain somebody. now i'm all filled with words in my head, words to tell that certain somebody. i don't know if i could make this any easy for the both of us. somehow, this feels like a break-up which it actually shouldn't. so it is weird to have all the different feelings buried in my heart. i just couldn't bring myself to say those things to that certain somebody even though he has made me promise him to tell him at once. i'm in dilemma now, should i go and get things done with or come up with some lame-ass excuse and stay in, giving myself one day or more to figure out a better way to break this news to that certain somebody? i'm losing my sleep because of this. i never thought that i cared about that certain somebody this much. i'm starting to feel that i've made a mistake.
