Tuesday, September 11, 2007
we had another dramatic break-up yesterday. very dramatic indeed with:
a small cause of problem, him raising his voice me, me yelling back uncontrollably, him making things worst by joining in the yelling sensation, me packing my stuff and wanting to leave, him realising things got out of hand and tried to stop me, me insist on leaving, he doubles up the effort holding up the door, me left alas, him beeping me thousands of times, me came to my own sanctuary and cried, him drove all the way and waited in my front door, me not wanting to see his face, him begging me to go back with him, me got soft-hearted and let in, he won.
the night continues with:
him apologizing over and over again, me refuses to even look him in the eye, him giving me all the special treatment, me gave in yet another time, him treating me extra nice, me savouring every moment of this.
because the so-called special treatment will last the longest by 3 days i say. it always does. like he said, it runs in a circle and frankly, i've grown tired of all these. running away takes alot of effort, seeing that i have three quarters of my belongings comfortably sitting at his place now. crying takes a lot of effort too, the more this happens, the more i realised that i've had enough of crying. in fact, i'm done crying over him, tears are getting lesser but heartache stacks up higher. how long more could i take this? only time will tell.
