Friday, August 24, 2007
under the influence of a lot, and when i say a lot, i meant A LOT of substanstances, i can barely differentiate what's real and what's not anymore. it has totally fucked up my memories, and injected a huge dose of paranoia. i fear looking into the mirror without thinking that my reflection will turn into a horrible creature or something. most of all, i fear being alone cause i feel weak and vulnerable when i do. a part of me wanted to go and find out what really had happened the other day when all these started to happened to me, but a minor part of me doesnt want to. i dont want to know if all the hallucinations turned out to be the truth. well, here's my mind wandering off somewhere again.
anyways, i'm watching disney channel. the little mermaid, the lobster thingy named sebastian is really annoying the hell out of me now. i remembered that i used to adore that character alot last time, well, things had changed. i'm not in the mood to write anymore, just need some time on my own, to search for tranquility deep within myself in order to fight off all the darkness surrounding me now. ciao.
