So this is what you mean
And this is how you feel
So this is how you see
And this is how you breathe

SometimesI know
SometimesI go down deep
Oh
So this is what you mean
And this is how you feel
So this how you see
And this is how you breathe

SometimesI know
SometimesI go down deep
Oh
Beneath the deep blue sea
Touching every breath
All a slight off hand
For everything you left

SometimesI know
SometimesI go down deep
Oh
SometimesI give myself for you
SometimesI know down deep

note: loving this song so much! It's by Binocular - Deep.

i hate confrontation, who doesn't? right? But i've learned that it's something we all must go through. tough process. things happened for a reason, whether it's caused by own-self or for what ever reason there is. Facing the consequences is the hardest part of all. Letting go of the luxuries that were given to you is another thing, getting rid of the companionship one has gotten so used to, moving on to a new chapter of life with new faces around. Thoughts that slap you right on your face. anyways, bet all of you wouldn't know what i'm blogging up until now. Nevermind all that now. i gotta be heading out to tapao food.

it's a strange world we all lived in. something i thought is auricular, not anymore now. sometimes, it's funny how things had turned out to be. I really don't know whether to laugh along with it, or to cry because of it. emotions are barely useful at these times.

headache. panadol. fuck!

hungry.

I've been feeling really joyful for the past few days. well, you know when a girl says that she's happy, it's usually because of some guy. It's a norm, and this time, it's right. i've longed to feel this feeling of being so obsessed with someone, the feeling of wanting someone so badly but couldn't own; the thrill of the chase. Like i said, the best thing you'll ever have in life are things you could never get. Never could seemed to appreciate more once it is yours. anyways, yes. i'm happy. and yes. it's because of someone. at first, i thought that it was just another 3minutes stuff that i'm into and after that, i'll get over it. instead, this stays longer than it should. thus, it turns into something scary. maybe it should be served as a warning, but i'm no longer sure about that. so, me being my usual self. not going to deny it if it's real, and we'll just see how things will go from there.

as sinful as the demon from hell, here i add another thing to the list of things that earned me a bungalow in hell. deja vu. puddle of mudd playing on the screen is really just distracting my train of thoughts. but hey! it's the charlatans!! first time hearing them, pretty good shit.

right, i havent been blogging about the PD rave. let's see. journey to PD is a pretty good one, the jam doesnt really bother me since i dont have to drive. hehe. pity Jeff, the one driving all the way there (happily sipping his dutch lady milk). so we reach around 6pm, and the first destination - the Dome. it's really cool that they have it in rave, and i will demand that they have it in every rave there is in Malaysia. it's so cooling inside i barely want to leave. we had tons of beers (beers make people happy, so you should drink more). Met Alfred, havent seen him in ages but nothing much had changed about him. good thing, dont worry. anyways, tiesto starts spinning. we went out, it was a blast. was trippin' most of the time and yea, that's probably how i remembered the night. Heard a few stoopid things i've done there, not surprising. you have to know me long enough to think that these things werent even worth mentioning, hehe.

i have to say that i had fun. raves in PD couldnt go wrong, superstitious me. So, back to normal working life now. nothing extraordinary has taken place, i felt good about someone, no doubt about that. wasnt sure if it's love yet, it's still too early to determine anything. i'll blog once i have the chance to. hopefully soon.

it's been so long since i've writen any entry for my blog. i'm glad somewhere at the back of my mind, i still remember that i have a blog ;p anyways, time flies; many things have changed, Diane has a guy that she calls her boyfriend; some drama plot in some blockbuster movies are actually taking place in the real world, THE real world. please don't mind me, i'm still very much amused by it. I'm still trying to summarize the little and also major incidents that took place in the past 2 months. Short period filled with exciting events, starting with the drama that taught all of us to "know who your real friends are", followed by the "i-still-cannot-believe-it" Diane and Paul's blooming relationship and so forth. out of all these wonders, people change. and it's always fun to see people change! it's like "i would never be like that" before and now these words are slaping us right on our face. that's a proof that people do change, and some calls it growing. No, plants grow, people.. well, people gets old. heck to what i'm saying, at first i thought i was making a point, then it all leads to nowhere.

talking about olden days, i've always loved rave parties. they're practically the only thing that i look forward to every year, my goal. now i sound useless, never mind. the point being is that i realized that i'm not all that enthusiastic about rave parties anymore. Nevertheless, i still try to make it a point that i want to go. simply short, i've lost the "flame". the dressing up, going out at night to party. drink and be unconscious of what i'm doing (that's actually the exciting part). yes, i am going to repeat here again on my blog: I'm aging! back to the point, the reason that i still want to go to rave parties (i think) is because i wanted to know how it feels like again to be so care-free and just throw myself out there to have major fun! So, yes, Tiesto's playing in this upcoming rave in Port Dickson and I am going!

I really wanted to blog more about stuff (i have like tons of things that i wanted to write about) but the annoying headache is back, plus the flu. guess i'll rest early tonight. lots of love, muacks!